The Lost Tales Of Nargothrond

Good Bye, Adeu, Adios, Selamat

2009-03-31T07:01:00.000-07:00

Come Sunday this blog and its contents will cease to exist.. along with any other cyber trace of me. This includes my Facebook account and any other social networking account I have.. my email addresses and all other postings I have online.

I have decided to totally eradicate any type of cyber existence of myself. I will also be uninstalling all chat applications on my machine and will have only one e mail address open for academic purposes.

I will be totally distancing myself from the world wide web and only will be using it when I have to during academic purposes..

From Sunday onwards FINroD will cease to exist and so will I.. Thank you for enduring me all this time and I wish you all well..

Good Bye..

Too Many Shit, Too Little Time

2009-03-26T18:55:00.000-07:00

Lots of crap happening these days, plus I just don't feel like writing anymore... :S

Thinking of closing this blog down, Life is just "BLAH"!

Good or Bad

2009-03-23T02:58:00.000-07:00

Thursday - Open mic night with the blogger pals

Friday - Birthday BBQ at Baby's house...

Saturday - Dinner at F's place and then had a bottle of white rum with F and Copywriter Pal slept at 5 am

Sunday - Spent the day at this get together for the participants of that Malay club event, went for another event in the night and spent some time with F and Copywriter Pal and a few other friends at Coffee Stop

Somethings Amiss

2009-03-17T23:00:00.000-07:00

Ever feel like something's wrong
something's amiss and just not right
Your world is about to fall apart
and leave you out there alone and cold

The people you once could count on
are nowhere to be found anymore
They've abandoned you and run away
and left you to die here

You sit here contemplating on whats wrong
while the world rushes past you
Leaving a trail of destruction in its wake
and sorrow at each and every turn

You ask yourself why do we go on
Is it worth waking up every morning
to this shit hole of a society
where the innocent are harmed everyday

Why am I filled with this sense of negativity
and hostility towards the world
What did it ever do for me to feel this way
oh yeah I remember it ruined my life!

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Something I Want to do Right Now!

2009-03-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

"Stick a tube down my throat and pump all the phlegm withheld in my lungs!"

* has an extreme coughing fit *

SYTYCD - Bleeding Love

2009-03-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

One word to sum it all up...... A-WESOME!!!!

BloggerNality (Blog Personality)

2009-03-15T00:27:00.000-07:00

So M.o.M and I were having this conversation about bloggers and what it would be to really meet some of the people in real life.. and well some are still anonymous where as others we know.. cos of meet ups and open mic nights etc..

Which got me thinking I mean its funny how you draw up this persona of a person just by what they write and when u meet them for real it kinda all takes you by surprise.. I've met a couple of bloggers and well some were kinda ok i.e. lived up to the reputation hehe.. others were weird and a few others disappointing.. hehe.. I used to think Whacky was this fat dude with glasses who's was working in an IT company or something like that hehe... but in reality he s the opposite lol..

Then a couple of months back I met another blogger who was supposedly thought to be extremely H.O.T and well was kinda disappointed to be honest.. I mean hey don't get me wrong the looks don't really count, they could be an awesome person but just I meant you know attractiveness vise.. hehe..

I can say for a fact that Makuluwo is her schizophrenic self even in real life so there's no change there hehe... then you get people like Sabby who are actually very very mellow and sheepish in reality.. but crazy nuts on their blog... Jerry as always is an egocentric.. annoying but good hearted bugger just as his blog portrays...

I guess what I'm trying to get at here is that we really shouldn't give too much thought to the blogs and the personalities of the bloggers as in real life they could be totally the opposite..

Our Time is Running Out

2009-03-14T12:34:00.000-07:00

You and I.. We have been through a lot...
Yet we always come back to each other...
We may not have been destined to be lovers...
But friends we are and we shall remain..

There will soon be a time...
when this union will be broken..
and we each will tread on different paths of life..
we have both foreseen and accepted this eventuality..

Yet until that time arrives..
together we shall be...
even though we may not be there physically...
emotionally and mentally our hearts will be aligned..

Just as the Ides of March is upon us...
some would say that it is an omen of misfortune..
yet I say Nay! it is but a day of great joy...
For it was this very day that the world was made brighter...

Twenty Two years ago the world was blessed with a child..
of imminent importance and greatness...
Someone with a great heart who loves unconditionally..
and empathizes unto great extent...

Although her life was not how it should have been...
yet she forges on day by day striving for the answers to her questions...
and even though there will come a day when you and I will not be in each others lives...
I say let that day come.. but for now.. I am happy to be-friend someone like you...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! - You know who you are friend...

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Go Crazy With Your Friends Day

2009-03-14T03:13:00.000-07:00

That was literally how my Friday went... It was absolutely Insane but Marvelous!! I woke up lazily as usual dreading the day because I had a 3 and a half hour lecture in the morning.. 8.30 to 12... so got dressed and came to uni to a very pleasant surprise hehe My lecturer took only 1 and a half hour for the lecture.. He said that since its the first week he'll do only 1 and a half hours... So the rest of the day I was basically free.. =D..

Ran into Celestial Dream as well... she was on her way for the Roy-Tho Big Match... honestly women going for big match :S dont really get that... anyways... Then I was wondering what to do when I met a friend of mine from Uni.. she was waiting for couple of her friends to finish lectures and we had time to spare so we thought of going to Odel for a bit.. and maybe get a bite or something... So off we went walking to Odel, spent sometime there just chilling and drank some Passion Fruit juice hehe.. then came back to uni.. and off we went again to Arpico with some other friends for a bite to eat... There I ran into some old colleagues from my old office... was fun to see them after a very long time.. was talking with them for awhile... and then I ran into some of my uni friends who've left uni as well..

As I was leaving Arpico with N ( friend I went to Odel with ) I get a call from M.o.M and the poor darling was depressed because she was all alone at work and wanted to know if I'd like to go to Odel for Donuts... hehehe.. How could I say no? so I agreed to meet her there after I went for friday prayers... Dropped N her friends off at uni then went for prayers and went back to Odel and I was waiting for M.o.M to come... then to my amazement I ran into F and a couple of our friends there at Odel.. Apparently the Twins (obviously sisters :P F's pals) were migrating to Canada so they were on their way to Excel World to just hang out... M.o.M comes along with a pal from work and we got donuts and boy was it cute to see her chomp away on the donut hahaha.. she had a Chocolate Suprise and she kept saying "This is sooo GOOD" hahaha... It was like watching a kid devour their way through some really yummy candy hehehe.... then we went to excel world to meet up with F and his friends... spent some time there and then M.o.M had to leave so we walked all the way back to her office.. got to see the place as well... cool stuff... and then I headed back to meet up with F and the gang...

Went bowling and played pool and it was in dieing moments when happy hour was about to finish we decided to go to keg hehehe.. thank god there was still time left.. order some pitchers and we sat down to drink... had an awesome time with the entire lot... basically the entire day was awesome.. and I haven't had one of those in a very long time.... thoroughly enjoyed myself... got wet coming back home on the bike... and my calves were hurting like anything from all that walking.. but it was totally worth it.. So basically I just kept running into a whole bunch of friends through out the day... =D

HOLY MOLEY!! I'm on TV

2009-03-12T06:31:00.000-07:00

Man that's just crazy stuff... I came home today and was happily watching Stardust on HBO when F calls me up and says switch on your tele to Channel Eye your on TV... I was like WHAATT!! remember that Malay club anniversary thingy that I danced for well they showed it on national television today.. OMG I watched the whole thing it was HILARIOUS! seeing yourself on TV like that feels so surreal... I couldn't help feeling so embarrassed.. the mistakes I did were visible.. the mistakes the others did were visible.. They showed the entire event.. sigh... FREEAAAKKAAYY!!!

The Weird Dream Saga Continues...

2009-03-11T20:03:00.000-07:00

What is it with me and weird dreams... I'm plagued by them.. It's like every time I close my eyes and fall asleep I'm bombarded by them... the day before I had by far one of the most weirdest, creepiest, craziest dreams I've ever had... Its so crazy and embarrassing I really cant even talk about it here.. lets just say it was one of "those" dreams...

And last night.. I dreamt of ex-bestie again.. and and.. wait for it.. HER MOM!! :O I know!!! damn man.. weird shit.. It wasn't as bad as the dream I had before but I don't know.. I mean why am I bombarded by these dreams? What exactly is my subconscious trying to tell me... =S Its all so damn confusing...

P.S - hehehe... well to be honest her mom is a hottie.. hehehe.. and I always used to tease ex-bestie about it... I remember we used to sing stacy mom by fountains of wayne but substitute stacy for ex-besties name.. lol.. good times.. feels a million years ago now though.. sad how things change.. =(

Friendship or Was It

2009-03-10T06:40:00.000-07:00

You came, made an impression
You really made me happy to have a friend like you
You helped me realize that I needed to let go of certain things then
You left me to myself

Thank you for being there for me when I needed someone
A friend like you I'll never forget even though
You will be dearly missed

I guess people will always leave you
Sometimes things don't go the way you think it does
Always thought that friendships were meant to last
but somehow my minds been changed on that one

Maybe I didn't deserve to have someone like you in my life
Maybe this is the worlds way of getting me to pay for my sins
Maybe...

All I know is.. I miss my friend and wish things were different..
Wish things would go back to the way it was..
I don't have many friends that I can trust anymore...
So now it makes me wonder if we were even really friends?

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Current Mental Status

2009-03-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

For some reason I just feel thoroughly Depressed.. Alone.. and Depressed... sigh.... =S

COST CUTTING

2009-03-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

Just got this really cool e mail from a friend about cost cutting. This goes out to all you smokers out there in bloggerland.. =D

LOL HAHAHAHAhahahaah

Tank My Tank Baby!

2009-03-06T09:08:00.000-08:00

So riding back home a couple of hours back after rugby training which was brutal today.. FITNESS FITNESS FITNESS... any who was passing through peliyagoda and all of a sudden an army convoy comes alone... and what did it consist of? Two fricking battle tanks on two container trucks.. They must've been transporting them up North. OMG way cool!! got to get glimpse of them up close and personal... Weird thoughts then started popping into my head though then.. Kept imagining a missile all of a sudden stricking the tank like in those movies.. and we get thrown off our vehicles and its raining fire and shrapnel.. hehehe.. freaky shit... anyways then my exit came and I said a silent prayer for our boys operating those tanks.. and took my turn off and came back home..

Open Mic Nights, Arrack Tea & Driving Trials

2009-03-06T01:10:00.000-08:00

So last night I all of a sudden got into a mood and well decided to go for Indi's Open Mic Night... Makulowo was online so convinced her to tag along as well.. Turned out to be awesome... met a few known faces like Deane and Celestial Dream... Then finally met the Whackster who tried to put a spin on me but failed twice like the Hindenburg came a burning to the ground.. lol I think I'll let him explain it all to you guys...

The whole open mic thing was really cool.. people just coming up reading stuff of their blogs... and poems and one person even singing a song about sanitary pads or periods while strumming away on his guitar.. hahaha.. funny shit.. Then there were the refreshments which was Gal-The or Arrack Tea lol.. was itching to try but since I came by bike dint want to be caught drinking and driving, plus I had my driving trials as well the next day so dint drink any of that..

I think the feature of the night was Indi's Colombo you are cowards.. that was a real eye opener and it really hit home for me... Overall I give it 2 thumbs up.. although there were a few times maku caught me spacing out hehehe.. especially during the poems... lol.. never was my thing..

And Today so I went for my driving trial.. OMG easy as pie.. can't believe I was worried about it.. I nailed the reverse and the road test went smoothly as well.. So now I am a fully licensed individual.. BUAHAHAHA BEWARE PEDESTRIANS!!! dont worry I wont go Grand Theft Auto on you.. :P hahaha....

P.S. maybe next time I shud go on up as well.. cud sing a few tunes.. or something ... hehe... If I pluck up the courage that is..

To Go or Not to Go

2009-03-05T05:36:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. that is the question init... Was thinking of going for indi's open mic night tonight... but I have my driving trial tomorrow... hmmm.... oh screw it men.. I'll go who knows it should be fun..

What Happens When,

2009-03-03T18:32:00.000-08:00

Two really important beings from your past collide?

They become really great friends.....

GULP!

Lions and Tigers ( Who's Really the King of the Jungle?)

2009-03-03T10:03:00.000-08:00

I remember watching this on Young Asia Television a long time back... Just thought I'd post it up for everyone to see.. I really like the lyrics of this song.. most of it has some really deep profound meaning behind it...

Nausea

2009-03-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

Splitting Heads and excruciating aches
the nauseating taste at the bottom of your throat
a body so weak it can hardly carry itself
a fever so high it radiates the air surrounding it

a hunger that is everlasting but cannot be satisfied
due to the unavoidability of keeping sustenance down
of aching joints that creek with ever move
and sore muscles that throw spasms of pain

Insomnia that conquers the mind
and never let these awful thoughts lie
Wounds that refuse to heal and
festers and infects your very own soul

Comfort is something I seek
for I cannot go on like this anymore
A culmination of pain, nausea and soreness
that overwhelms my very being

Excuse me while I go throw up now
for this wave of excessive nausea has overcome me
Maybe the fever will subside then..
Or maybe it will finally release me from my insistent suffering.

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Club Rugb 7's, Birthday Lunches and Bloggers Going M.I.A

2009-03-02T03:04:00.000-08:00

So this past weekend was pure exhaustion.... Had the club rugby 7s on Saturday and Sunday.. which was extremely tiring... won 1 out of the 3 matches played.. well the opponents we lost to were Police and Army.. no shame in loosing to them hehe... then Sunday I had to rush over to nawala after the final match for a friends birthday lunch.. Had a really great time there.. good food, good company..

But now I'm suffering from the weekend in the hot sun.. sigh.. my knees are killing me.. plus I have fever and a very upset stomach.. oh and I'm sunburnt as well sigh.. In other news.. is it just me or is Kottu becoming more and more boring.. I dont know.. just find it really boring and lots of bloggers are going missing... :S wonder whats up there... hmm....

Conflicted

2009-02-25T20:56:00.000-08:00

Destiny has deserted me
Into the unknown I have been thrust
Memories of the past yet haunt me
My future cannot be foreseen

Conflicting thoughts battle within me
Each trying to overcome the other
How do I suppress these emotions
They keep dragging me into the depths of despair

My head says walk away
But my heart says to stay
Where does my Happiness lie
Will I ever find what I'm looking for

I have lost my identity
The person I am is a mystery
Misery is my company
and loathsome is what I have become..

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What The Dawn Brings

2009-02-25T17:57:00.000-08:00

Last night was bit of an eye opener for me.. many truths were revealed to me about last year and I am thankful to that person but I still haven't processed it all.. I don't know what to make out of it.. I feel like people are pulling away from me and I from them. Maybe this was what I wanted, maybe this is just them being busy... Someone told me that I have the tendency to get attached to people and that necessarily isn't a good thing..

I woke up in the morning to a text from a friend I've gotten close to recently, after replying to her I don't know I just got this sense of dread and feeling of sadness.. Maybe it was my knees which are killing me right now.. ( bruised them during practices last night ) or the fact that I feel like something's gonna go wrong.. you know sometimes you have a feeling like somethings not right.. like your entire world is about to fall apart..

Was chatting with a friend last night and she told me that she was almost raped when she was 15 I was so shocked and angry because this was one of my classmates and well she was bit of a nutter but still she is a good person. I cant even imagine what she would've gone through... I sometimes wonder why this world has to be so cruel? I really hope the asshole gets what he rightfully deserves the prick!

I wonder what life has in store for me, this from a person who dreads thinking about the future.. I really don't know why I am here even.. I'm not a very intelligent person, I'm not a jock.. I'm just average and a floater.. I've lasted so far out of pure luck and help... I hate the inside of my brain right now.. so many conflicting thoughts... love/hate/friendship/concern/depression...

Why can't I be just happy? sigh.....

Holy Crap! The Club Rugby Sevens are here...

2009-02-24T23:06:00.000-08:00

So this weekend dawns the Club Rugby 7s at CR & FC... and I will be playing with the OWSC boys... a bit nervous about it.. I mean I've played for the Mercantila 7's before but Club 7s is like a totally different thing ne... with the likes of SL's top clubs like Kandy, CR & FC, CH & FC, Havelocks, Police, Army, Navy and all those other clubs playing... I guess I can take comfort in the fact that we are in the B Division so we wont have to face the big guns.. but still... I guess its just pre-competition jitters... should be an interesting weekend though.. looking forward to it =D

FYI = CLUB RUGBY 7's
Venue = CR & FC
Date = Saturday & Sunday 28th Feb and 1st March

I Saw Her Standing There - The Crappy Version

2009-02-24T21:03:00.000-08:00

So as promised.. here's my pathetic attempt at a bit of guitar play and singing...

P.S -- the bloody thing took so fricking long to upload also... sheeesh... talk about ANNOYING!!

HAIYO

2009-02-24T10:36:00.000-08:00

AIYO....

SIN MEN.....

ANEY PAUW....

Just made things worse...

Feeling so guilty also...

Hope it'll work out in the end..

Was just trying to help....
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*the stone Midas touch strikes again...

The Most AWESOMEST Gift Ever!!

2009-02-23T10:27:00.000-08:00

So as you all can see from this. I'm like totally into the bracelet/wristband thingys.. and well some of you might know that M.o.M and I share this weird relation.. we are like cousins/aunt-nephew/best pals god knows what to call it.. and well she recently went to Malaysia and came back... and well I was kinda bugging her to bring something back for me and this was the result of it... It's soooo cool I so love it!!!

THANKS M.o.M... YOUR THE BEST!! LOVE U LOADZ

Mind Bomb!

2009-02-23T04:02:00.000-08:00

Thoughts currently in my head... Confused.. Perplexed.. Baffled.. :S

Virginia Dreams

2009-02-19T22:35:00.000-08:00

I remember the White Wedding dress you were wearing..
The marshland with the lone road that I passed on my way home yesterday..
Stopping halfway.. amazed at the sight of you...
The way you whispered my name and the way you embraced me in your warm embrace..

I remember it being the dead of night.. and the stars shining brightly..
The way we just talked and talked about life and each other...
I remember the touch of your palm on my face.. the taste of your skin and lips..
Wrapping my arms around you.. and kissing you lightly on your forehead..

The car hood we were sleeping on whilst gazing upon the starry sky..
You snuggled up against my body... spreading your body warmth through my body..
Me thinking why in the world are you wearing a wedding dress..
Then just putting it all aside thinking this is so right...

I remember asking you to go back to my place..
The vehicle that I put you in heading towards home...
Following my feet all the way home...
Seeing you standing there by the door thinking this cant be real... and then I woke up...
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I don't know what to make of this.. just remembered the dream so I wrote it up.. :S

O ye wilde demons..
When will ye stop haunting and taunting me?

Memories of 2008 - Beach House to Die For

2009-02-19T11:07:00.000-08:00

Location - Somewhere on the coast of Unawatuna..
Description - One of the best weekends on my life!!! Sun, Sand, Sea & Booze...

Sometimes I wonder

2009-02-19T10:38:00.000-08:00

Do we deserve the happiness we have in in our lives?

Man as a being have depleted most of the earths natural resources and will keep doing so until she has nothing to offer us.. It kind of reminds you of the part in the first Matrix movie when Morpheous is captured by Agent Smith. Agent Smith starts this rants on how humans are similar to viruses... all they do is destroy.. I mean if you think about it.. its kind of true.. we are fast running into a deeper and deeper hole of environmental despair... be it the polar ice caps melting.. the hole in the ozone layer or the strange horrendous storms that keep popping up all over the earth.. We will all have to answer for the part we have taken in creating these destructive forces..

On a totally unrelated thing.. funny thing happened today.. I went for driving lessons and halfway through the instructor got thirsty and we ended up stopping for a plain tea & patties.. lol hehe was having a chat with the old bugger and as usual we ended up talking about the current state of the country.. and came to an agreement.. theres no "We" concept thinking.. thats the main problem.. everybody's selfish and thinks only about themselves.. "I" concept.. This thought process must stop and we must adopt a "We" concept... funny how 2 totally random people can have a decent conversation and come to the same conclusion..

Teamwork

2009-02-19T10:10:00.000-08:00

OMFG this is sooo HILARIOUS... I just burst out laughing watching this.... hahahahaha.. LMAO

In other news

2009-02-18T21:05:00.000-08:00

Well I finished listening to Chinese Democracy... it was nice... the solo's were awesome.. dint like some of the songs though.. but over all I give the album a 7/10...

Now I'm onto Velvet Revolver =D downloaded their entire discography.... so been listening to their stuff.. very very niiiiice...

Oh something I've been pondering on.. errmm.. I was just wondering.. how come.. people who say are truly happy in relationships and are happy to be with their respective others.. complain about being lonely and not being loved enough... :s I don't get it men.. I mean if you say your happy and thankful to be with that person then why complain? anyways.. just a thought...

Currently Listening To....

2009-02-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

Guns N Roses - Chinese Democracy.. not bad at all... the solo's are frickin amazing...

Not in a very blogging mood these days.. every time I try to write up a post, half way through I loose interest... :S

oh in other news.. been really busy these days practicing and running around for the Malay club's 25th anniversary talent show/ entertainment night... its this Saturday @ Bishop's Auditorium... will be glad when its over... then F is letting me borrow his guitar :D gonna try to record some songs.... will post them up as soon as I can...

Weekend of Exhaustion....

2009-02-16T04:11:00.000-08:00

oh god.. had such a long tiring weekend.. I'm still reeling in exhaustion.. missed the bachelor meet up also.. sigh... Friday to Monday non stop... and its going to be the same for the whole week and the next weekend to come.. I'm so tired now I cant even write up a post on what I did during the weekend even...

Another Weird Dream

2009-02-14T18:47:00.000-08:00

It happened again... I had another weird dream.. but this time it was different... or rather the people involved were not people I've dreamed of before... I wont go into the details because well it's kind of embarrassing but it was very weird for me to have that dream..it involved two people who I thought I'd never dream about.. The first is a really good friend who've I've gotten really close to recently and she was the last person I spoke to before I crashed on the bed in exhaustion after yesterday... and the second was someone who really really hates me for what she assumes that I did to ex-bestie.... Weird how two totally random people pop into your dreams... hmm....

Robbing a Bank!

2009-02-12T05:10:00.000-08:00

That's exactly the way I feel right now.. I absolutely Hate being broke men.. sigh.. ever since this year started I've been living pay check to pay check.. or rather in this case.. pocket money to pocket money....hehehe... I don't go out as often as I did before.. I don't socialize as much as I did before... all work and no play makes FINroD a very dull man...

I wish I was working again men.. at least back then I had the money to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted... I've tried budgeting and trying to make ends meet and all but it never seems to work.. its not like I spend all my money on cigarettes and alcohol.. I don't smoke.. but well lets just say with the amount I'm getting nobody could survive... Its really hard when your like invited to all these things but have to keep turning them down because you just cant even afford the travel expenses....

And the worst part is well... I really can't bug my parents for money cos well they are both retired and well they are kind of tight themselves as well.. so I feel really guilty... It's just really depressing to not be able to go out like I used to... jobs are out of the question unless its a 1 time gig or something... becos well.. working while doing the final year of ur degree is NOT a valid option... so I'm like stuck between a rock and a hard place... financially...

Man I wish there was a quick way to make some money.. Like I remember a couple of years back.. me and a friend got paid 3k for being ushers at this event at water's edge.. that was cool.. to bad there aren't any gigs like that anymore... Everybody keep's saying only a couple of more months dude.. then u ll be done and then u ll get a job.. errmm.. hello?? have u seen the current job market right now?? nobody's hiring... I have friends who graduated LAST year and even they are still out of work.. sheeeesh.. anyways.. just wondering when this stupid financial crisis I'm having will get over... as I said earlier.. being broke SUCKS!

Lankan's Go Twenty-20 Crazy!

2009-02-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

Long Weekend of Craziness

2009-02-10T22:15:00.000-08:00

So I had a really interesting weekend... topped off Friday on which I had an exam by heading over to The Keg with two friends for a pint of beer... had a laugh there.. it was nice to blow off some steam after exam week.. Saturday saw me doing absolutely nothing.. just chilled away at home.. watched The Big Bang Theory season 1 and a couple of other movies... Sunday I went to watch a friends band who was taking part in my Malay Club's talent competition... it was fun hanging out with the gang.. they weren't half bad even although they could've done better.. They played a mix of.. Sweet Child of Mine and Times Like these..

Heres DeTour in action lol..

After the auditions were over we headed over to a friends house and had lunch there and hung out there the rest of the day.... while I was at the auditions I got pulled in to dance for the main show.. so had to go for dancing practices the next day... oh man spent the entire day practicing... bloody hell it was tiring... came back home in the evening.. showered and I was online and then went to bed at around 12.30 am.... i hadn't even slept half an hour and then we get a call from loku amma saying that my grand dad was really ill.. so we all went there at 1.30 in the morning and was really worried because he's quite old... like 94.. so in the morning we took him to Apollo and admitted him.. he's still not better... so a little worried there.. :-( ...

So after my parents and aunt & uncle took my grand dad to the hospital I came back home on Tuesday morning... sleep deprived and all.. slept for a few hours.. then was up and as really really hungry.... but there was nothing to eat also so was wondering what to do... I switch on the tele and on travel & living they are showing a episode of america's best burger joints.. I was like NOOOOOoooooo!!... then a friend called and I was talking to her.. and was telling her how much I was craving a burger and she was like come lets go out for lunch somewhere then... hehehe.. so ended up going to Mc Donalds Rajagiriya cos well it was closer for her and anyways I was going for the Twenty-20 Match... after lunch I headed over to a friends place in Borella where the guys were all meeting up to go to Kettharama.... oh man the bus ride from Borella to the stadium was an absolute terror.. it was so PACKED!! anyways had an awesome time at the match.. too bad we lost tho.. sigh.. stupid Dilhara Fernando.. sigh.... anyways had an awesome time there....... and a very interesting insanity filled long weekend =D

A Blast From the Past

2009-02-07T10:29:00.000-08:00

So I found this little or rather long note of quotes and revelations I dawned on a couple of years back and thought I'd put them hmm..... reflecting through the note I guess not much has changed.. sigh....

• When it comes down to it, what anyone really needs is someone to talk to and relate their problems to. Its not always about sex, it’s more about companionship and man’s desire to rid himself of this disease called Loneliness.

• That is why any man talks to a woman. It is to rid this sense of loneliness; after all don’t we all want someone to cherish and hold and to be held in return.

• It is a word from the mere mention of it can bring great happiness to a person’s life but could also equally bring great destruction. Men have fought wars over this word and have killed themselves and countless many others. This word does not exist; it is the driving force of mankind. It is rather sad that with all of mankind’s advancement they still fail to see that LOVE does not exist. It is a false sense of hope given to a man to explain a feeling that will not last forever.

• To be lonely is like being in a long deep coma that one cannot come out of. You can hear what goes on around you, but can’t get out of the misery and bullshit of this world. It creates this instant barrier between you and the world and gives you this immense feeling of loathsome for everyone and everything around you.

• Why is that virginity, is such an important issue? Is it that we can’t stand to know that that our loved one belonged and connected with another; mind, body and soul. Is it so disgusting that relationships are broken from the mere mention of this word?

• Hell hath no fury like a woman’s scorn, but if this is true why are most crimes committed upon women.

• To Fuck someone is to say that you were only physically attracted to that person, but to make Love to a person is to acknowledge the presence of a special bond between you and that individual.

• Man is polygamous by nature so he will plant his seed anywhere that he can, but women are monogamous by nature so they will always want only one person and are satisfied with that one for the rest of their lives. Hence this is why women are so jealous.

• Why is that when you try to solve other peoples problems, they end up having more problems than before they had started to speak to you.

• Why is it that the ones you love are the ones who hurt you the most? Why do we always throw away the most important people in our lives? People runaway or elope but they fail to realize that what they have done will come back to catch them in a year or twenty years from now.

• The times and trends may change through the dimensions of time and space but ones beliefs should not change.

• They say that we should be glad for what we have, but how can this apply to a person who has nothing to be glad for?

• The real purpose of books is to trap the mind into doing its own thinking. They act as doorways to never ending lands where you can wander in your solitude and imagination.

• My pure existence has been a purposeless mistake. I do not have a goal, achievement or purpose in life so what the FUCK, am I to do?

• Sometimes you just want to scream until your lungs burst so you can slowly release your grip on life while the blood oozes out of your body.

• ANGER! A power that can overcome any situation. It’s amazing what anger can do to a person. It can make you hold a grudge for generations ensuring that your offspring will carry on with your hatred after you depart this ungodly earth. But for most of us anger is a way to lash out against this pathetic earth that we live in. Anger is good.

• WHY, WHY do I sabotage every single prospective good thing in my life.. its like I'm Midas or something.. except for the fact that when he touched things it turned to gold, but when I touch things they turn to dust.... WHY, WHY??

LIFE!

2009-02-06T23:27:00.000-08:00

is extremely boring and predictable and DOWN RIGHT LAME!!.. and I keep doing things I shudn't be doing... and hey guess what? my friend list keeps getting shorter and shorter... the guy who never had enemies.. can't stop making more and more of them..

ARRRGGHHH!!!! *blows his brains out*

Why I Love Rugby 2

2009-02-04T08:42:00.000-08:00

Heres another vid =D

Enjoy!!

Why I Love Rugby

2009-02-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

AWESOME stuff!!

This is what Rugby is all about!!

2009-02-04T08:18:00.000-08:00

One of the best team tries I've ever seen.. Wales vs. Australia last November... Wales won this match and the dearly deserved that win!

ENJOY!!

I Know

2009-02-02T20:42:00.000-08:00

"That the decisions I've made might come back to haunt me someday.. but in order to protect myself and others from myself I need to stick to them......"

Damn! This site is Awesome!

2009-02-02T09:12:00.000-08:00

http://www.mytwinhauntsme.com/

Check it out!!

Things I Have to Keep Telling Myself

2009-02-02T05:20:00.000-08:00

STOP CARING!

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET YOURSELF INTO THIS KIND OF SITUATION EVER AGAIN!

FOCUS ON THE THINGS YOU NEED TO FINISH!

BE CAREFUL WHO YOU GIVE YOUR HEART TO!

STONE SOUR - Wicked Game

2009-01-31T19:25:00.000-08:00

This song so totally says it all doesn't it.. hehehehe.. love these guys.. still cant believe its corey from slipknot tho...
___________________________________________________

World was on fire and no one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do.
And I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.

No, I don't want to fall in love.
No, I don't want to fall in love.
With you. With you.

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt that way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you

And, I don't want to fall in love.
No, I don't want to fall in love.
With you. With you.

World was on fire and no one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No, I don't want to fall in love.
No, I don't want to fall in love.
No I...
No I...
Nobody loves no one.
__________________________________________________

Self Quotes VI

2009-01-30T21:27:00.000-08:00

Upon hearing some really disturbing news...

" It's amazing how people try to cover the truth by saying that others are spreading rumours about them " ™

" The sacrifices I make to keep your secret have ruined my reputation amongst others, but I guess that is what I must do to keep my promise to you "™

Everything Tastes Like Chicken When Its Cooked!

2009-01-30T09:02:00.000-08:00

So by now I think we've established that I'm a healthy meat eater and come from a very strong family of meat eaters as well. I've eaten the usual chicken, beef and mutton but also animals like rabbit, turkey, duck. Yesterday as usual my mom headed over to my loku ammi's (mom's elder sisters) place to spend the night looking after grandpa.. Thursday nights she usually does that. Well my dad goes and drops her.. and we were supposed to figure dinner out..

when my dad came back he had brought string hoppers... now I'm usually not a big fan of string hoppers but I was hungry and wanted to eat.... so there was a bit of the afternoons tongue curry left and well.. loku ammi had sent some curry back through dad as well. Dad said that it was chicken satay.. and me being the perethaya that I am.. thats glutton btw.. hehehe... I took some and ate it with the strings...

At first it did taste like chicken but then as I munched away.. I dont know for some reason it felt different so I asked dad wats wrong with this chicken? and he was like nothing... theres nothing wrong... just eat.. so I did.. I mean it wasn't bad.. It was actually quite tasty.. but I kinda new that there was something fishy going on cos well it tasted a bit different.... So in the morning when my mom came back.. She says... "Ahh how was the curry that Uvama( loku ammi.. Uvama is the malay version of it..) sent last night? was it tasty?" I was like it was alryt... then she says I dont know how you could eat it... I was like :S huh.. then she says.. its was THALAGOYA... I was like :O HOLY CRAP!! hehehe.... I just ate monitor lizard meat!! :O WOAAH!! hehehehe... I mean ppl say that its supposed to make you really strong and all but I dont know.. :S

It was alryt I guess... simillar to chicken hehehe... gosh the things my loku ammi and thaathi catch.. sheesh... It seems loku thaathi had killed the lizard in their garden and this was the result of it.. LOL...

so another truly "PISSU SANDA MOLE" moment....

Self Quotes V

2009-01-30T08:39:00.000-08:00

" Internships: Your there to LEARN not to EARN " ™

Self Quotes IV

2009-01-29T09:52:00.000-08:00

" I don't give a damn if someone had you before, what matters is that I have you now " ™

Me talking about virginity and relationships..

Self Quotes III

2009-01-28T07:44:00.000-08:00

"Isn't it amazing how much BULLSHIT ppl will feed you in order to prevent telling you the truth" ™

Self Quotes II

2009-01-27T07:15:00.000-08:00

" If ever in doubt, always Google it out " ™

Self Quotes

2009-01-27T01:29:00.000-08:00

So after taking a page out of little miss plethora's book.. I thought of putting up my own quotes hehehe...

"Part-time Asshole, Full-time Dick" ™

Knight in Shining Armour Syndrome

2009-01-25T07:17:00.000-08:00

Are you someone who doesn't like to see others in pain?

Does it break your heart to see someone you care about being sad?

Are you a shoulder to lean on and a person to tell all their troubles to?

"Congratulations! You have what is called The Knight in Shining Armour Syndrome or a Hero Complex"

New Motto on Life

2009-01-23T20:17:00.000-08:00

"Keep Moving Forward"

that's what I'm gonna try to do... put the past behind and look to the future..

I've made my peace with my past..

Best Compliment You Can Ever Get From a Woman

2009-01-21T06:35:00.000-08:00

" u seriously know how to turn a girl ON! "

Going M.I.A

2009-01-16T05:03:00.000-08:00

Sorry people I ll be out of it for awhile.. have a huge load of assignments, FYP midpoints, VIVA's and Exams to do... catch you'll around...

FINroD out!!

Say What You Want

2009-01-09T10:24:00.000-08:00

You can say what you want.. You can write what you want.. You can do what you want...

I just don't give a damn anymore.... I'm tired of everything I do somehow ending up hurting you and I'm tired of everything you do somehow annoying and hurting me...

I GIVE UP!

Dreaming of a Yamaha Pacifica.... SIGH.....

2009-01-09T08:32:00.000-08:00

*SIGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who Knew

2009-01-09T05:25:00.000-08:00

Well.. I went for my driving license written exam today... was a piece of cake... it was at 2.30 and it was in Gampaha.. so I took the bike and left at around 1.15 had a very nice interesting ride there.. would taken around half an hour to get there I guess. It was an interesting ride.. made me think why I love riding a motorbike all over again.. Got there... had to wait outside for a bit.. used it to do a bit of revising.. then went in... you know I've never been a fan of government servants.. they sit there being paid by our taxes and then they put all their part and all.. maara pada ne.. but I was rather shocked today.. when I went into the examination hall this man who was one of the invigilators was very nice actually... he explained for us what to do and did in a very friendly manner.. the amusing part was when I asked for an English question paper... they actually asked me to write up a request on my answer sheet asking for an english paper and giving a reason why I want one... hahahaha... I guess it was to check if I really did know english because well they've updated the question papers, but apparently only the sinhala and tamil papers... nobody's updated the english one.. so yeah.. hahahaha.. lucky me.... cos I saw some of the sinhala papers.. they were a bit tough.. but the english paper was as my old mathematics teacher would say.. JUJUBEs... finished it in like 10 minutes and buggered off..

I think these papers are rigged so that no one will get 100 out of 100 or rather in this case 40 out of 40.. even in the english paper some of the last questions were a bit confusing and since its multiple choice so the answers were all a bit simillar and you had to use the best suited answer for the situation. One of these were If involved in a accident do u a) take the injured person immediately to the hospital by another vehicle. b) mark the accident area and then take the injured person to the hospital. c) do either of the quickest of the above. I was like meh? :S :S :S... hehehehe... so yeah but the rest of the paper was simple enough.. enjoyed the ride back and been enjoying October Road ever since.. =D....

All in all.. not a bad day.. having some friends over for lunch tomorrow should be interesting..

Tenacious D - Tribute (long version)

2009-01-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

Just love these guys... been listening to their songs all over again.. Jack Black + Kyle Gass... Fricking Brilliant maaan...

One of Those Days

2009-01-07T05:58:00.000-08:00

Just having one of those why the fuck am I doing this when I know that I'm so going to fail days...

*HEAD DESK*

or rather *HEAD KEYBOARD*

Royally FARKED

2009-01-05T07:53:00.000-08:00

Well was going to say the four letter word.. but then decided against it.. sigh.. I have a CCSD - Concurrent Computer Systems Development project due tomorrow and I haven't got any shit done... sigh.. :(.. damn why do I get the feeling I'm so gonna flunk this semester.. ARRGGHH... ok ok back to work then... =(

Saturday Night Live - Dick In A Box

2009-01-03T21:26:00.000-08:00

hahahahahaha... omg... LMAO.. ROTFL... who ever knew tht JT was such a crazy assed fool... lol hahaha..

Jizz In My Pants

2009-01-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

hahahahaha... I saw this vid and I Jizzed in ma pants =P....

Note To Self

2009-01-01T22:25:00.000-08:00

Stop Complicating already complicated matters...

Add... Mr. Confusion to list of AKA titles...

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!

2008-12-31T11:16:00.000-08:00

Hope this year is bountiful and fruitful and filled with happiness and joy!!

Have a good one!! =D

Plumb - Only You (Blush)

2008-12-30T22:20:00.000-08:00

I don't know why but I had a flash last night and this song popped into my head.. was introduced to it by a hmmm... friend.. about an year or two ago... the lyrics are really nice...

___________________________________________
When you look at me I start to blush
and all that I can say is you and us
oh baby I'm so afraid to be in love
with you, with you...

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you
just you

When stars are falling dark
will light the way
will hit the ground and fall
into the shade
ill light the night with fire
and run away

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you

I wanna be in love with you
I wanna be in love (I wanna be in love)
I wanna be in love with you
I wanna be in love (I wanna be in love)

I wanna be in love with you...

I wanna be in love with only you
I wanna watch the sky turn grey then blue
I wanna know the kiss thats always new
I wanna be in love with only you

Just you
I wanna be
just you yeah

If Something Like This Happens to You What Would You Do?

2008-12-30T08:23:00.000-08:00

So I was reading this really interesting post by Court Jester and decided to post this questions..

Say you were living in your house.... and well this family came and asked for refuge from you and you being the most generous and hospitable people offered them to stay in your house... then they started inviting more n more of their relatives to come and stay in your house without your permission even... then finally one day asks you to move out.. what would you do? how would you react?...

Makes you think doesn't it....

I Should Be Working on my Assignment BUT...

2008-12-30T06:28:00.000-08:00

I'm sitting here writing this post..

I'm listening to Jack Johnson who's entire discography I just finished downloading..

I'm downloading a movie called Stranger than Fiction and a Rugby match.. the Celtic Series.. South Africa vs. Wales..

I'm hungry as usual...

I'm cursing the administration for starting uni on the 1st and having a submission on the 2nd.. ARRGGHH!!!

I'm wondering what you are up to...

I'm reading blogs...

Cup Victory's

2008-12-29T20:24:00.000-08:00

This is a pic of the CUP we retained after the SLIIT big match...

Whatever Happens

2008-12-28T19:43:00.000-08:00

Things will never go back to the way they were... It'll never be the same.. I think I realize that now... It's a sad thought but... I guess we all change eventually.. even you...

Things I Must Eventually Accept

2008-12-28T03:07:00.000-08:00

I'm never gonna be good enough for my parents..

You don't need me in your life anymore...

Walking away might not solve the problem all the time..

I can't keep floating around any longer...

New Year's Resolutions

2008-12-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

hmm.. here's to hoping I stick to them...

1. Stop procrastinating.

2. Workout more.

3. Regain my six packs.

4. Stay away from women.

5. Build up walls around me and keep people out.

6. Stop drinking.

7. Be more religious.

8. Study harder.

Just the Thing that you want to hear from your Parents

2008-12-26T05:43:00.000-08:00

" You are such a disappointment"

" We can never depend on you"

Thanks a lot mom and dad.. now let me go blow my brains out...

Obsessive Stupid Thoughts Mulling in my Head

2008-12-25T07:29:00.000-08:00

I miss you...

Of Crooked Referee's, Cowardice and Graduation Balls

2008-12-22T02:20:00.000-08:00

Oh man what a weekend!! talk about hectic!! had the Match on Saturday evening, then a birthday party in Moratuwa and then the Graduation Ball on Sunday... Sigh.. was thoroughly disappointed about the match.. It was our game.. but the referee started pulling towards the SLIIT guys.. well its to be expected they did organize the match... but still that was the worst officiation that I've seen.. he wrongfully penalized us.. in the end it ended up in a 7-7 draw.. sigh... interesting thing though was the massive fight in the second half with 20 minutes left on the clock.. they started hitting some of our players then we started hammering them.. then the crowd got involved.. it was one huge fight!!... once the dust had settled.. or rather once we broke up the fights.. the idiot ref gave this huge speech on how we shouldntve fought bla bla bla... and refused to officiate the game.. finally got the bugger to referee it again... at that time we were leading 7 -0 then the SLIIT team scored a try and converted.. there was 10 minutes left on the clock and this fool blows full timee!!! I mean WTF?? sigh... so yeah... after the match.. I had to leave early and go to my friends place in Moratuwa for his 21st Birthday Party....

It was fun had a nice time there... danced alot.. cudnt stay long tho.. ma parents were in dehiwala at a homecoming so they came n picked me up.... the next day I find out that after the match and after most of our crowd had gone.. there were 8 of our buggers left and around 30 SLIIT buggers had ganged up on them and beaten the crap out of them.. I was like WTF?? Come On!! 30 against 8!! bloody cowards!! was really pissed off about that!.. BLOODY PUSSIES!!... so sunday was spent lazying away a bit and recooperating from the match and party... then in the evening I went for the Grad Ball!! oh man it was AWESOME!!!! the booze !! the Food!! the Music!! the Latin Dancers :P lol hahahahaha... had a brilliant time.. danced and danced and danced like crazy... ended up coming home only today morning at like 5 AM lol.... man that was one brilliant party!!

So all in all a very very eventful weekend with lots of excitement and disappointment as well... guess thts life though... =D

Match Day Game Face On!!

2008-12-19T08:06:00.000-08:00

So I've decided there's noway in hell I'm gonna miss this match!! This is the last match that I'll play for my uni and sickness or no sickness I'm gonna play tomorrow... Here's to hoping we win tomorrow... and for a good clean great game of rugby :D.... even though I'm not 100% fit... my team mates are counting on me and I'm not going to disappoint them... Gonna play tomorrow and we sure as hell gonna WIN!

On the bright side I get to play in my old position =D the one I was born to be in :) Wing Three quarter baby!!... Gonna Run, Gonna Tackle and Gonna WIN!!!

I'm gonna leave you with last years team.....

WTF Happened to Me?

2008-12-18T09:06:00.000-08:00

Some people change through time.. some don't.. is it mandatory that we have to change? that we have to adapt to the environment that we live in? I look back at what I was four years back and the comparison appalls me.. Four years ago I was this naive, caring, nice, honest, innocent.. today.. I don't think I have any of those qualities that I had back then..... It's really weird.. what happened to me? why did I change? did I realize that I had changed? Did I do this to myself? Is it a part of the growing up process that we need to change?

I realized today that I haven't been truly.. honest to god happy in four fricking years... that's a bloody long time to be depressed... what the fuck's wrong with me? Why I can't I be happy? Ever heard of the saying " Practice what you preach".. you'll never find a hypocrite greater than me... I've always been the consoler, the shoulder to lean on during tough times, the adviser... It's a role I just stumbled upon one day and it suited me well... I would say things to people and they'd listen and most of the time the advice I would give them would help them out... but did it mean that I believed in what I was telling them? Hell No! I know, I know bloody bogus of me but hey they felt better afterwords..

But somewhere along the lines its all gone astray these days I rarely get into that role as all I seem to do is make things worse... I've become a negative.. somewhere along the way I've become this pessimistic, depressive, dishonest, narcissistic, narrow minded... AGAD! sigh.... Males you wonder.. what in the world happened? Maybe its good that I've been unlucky in love.. I mean look at what I've become.. women would be better off without having someone like me in their life... I'd just drag them down with me...

In Sickness & in Health

2008-12-18T06:06:00.000-08:00

I really hate being sick.. absolutely detest and loathe it... when I get sick I get cranky, I get mean. I become a down right pathetic moronic hateful loathsome bastard.. When I get sick I get sick BAAD and I mean BAAD!! heres a list of things that piss me off right now:-

It pisses me off:-

that I might have to miss my match on Saturday on the count that I can barely breathe right now.

that I'm missing today's Christmas party because I'm too sick to attend it.

that someone changed their status to "in a relationship".

that I've screwed up my attendance at uni and these SOB's will never let it go even though I've been sick.

that it keeps on raining every fucking day.

that I can't understand jack of whats been taught at uni.

that someone called me a whiny, spoilt baby.

that other people are happy ( yeah yeah whatever.. DIE U FOOLS)

Now piss off and leave me alone!

Current Physical Status - CPS

2008-12-15T08:21:00.000-08:00

"COUGH COUGH COOOOUUUUGGGHHH........"

"AAHH AHHH AAAAHHHCCHHHOOO"

"SHIVER...."

bitch of a cocktail this is... cough, cold and sore throat... plus the fever is on its way sigh.... i hate phlem coughs... fluid in my lungs... tonsils all swollen... cant even swallow food down properly.. nose is like a dripping tap.. sigh...... BEGONE U VILE GERMS!!

Archie Me Boy!

2008-12-13T20:47:00.000-08:00

I'm sure all of you all are familiar with Archie Comics... haven't you ever wondered what Archie must be feeling like? I mean he has two really important women in his life: Betty and Veronica, but doesn't know who he really loves... funny situation in it.. both are really beautiful, strong willed girls who love Archie a lot but he cant decide amongst the two.. On one hand you have Betty who is this really pretty, caring and nice girl and then u've got Veronica.. who's this elegant, sophisticated, beautiful girl... personally I think Betty is waaaaay better than Veronica.. but hmm.. ever thought about it from Archie's point of view.. he has these two extremely gorgeous women but cant decide who he wants to be with... funny init..

Wonder if there are situations like that in real life? I know we are all really selfish when it comes to relationships and love but... hmmm.. just makes u think..

Of Illnesses, Confusion and Boredom

2008-12-13T02:23:00.000-08:00

sigh.. I'm sick again.. got a bloody sore throat and the sniffles.... sigh.. I hate getting sick... this is so not the time for it.. I have another match on the 20th and this is an important one that I cant afford to miss... life is getting more n more complicated these days.. but then again when was it ever not.. today I met this childhood friend.. well actually still a friend... a neighbour friend one might call him.. an year back he joined the SL Navy and I'm seeing him after a very long time.. OMG he s around 6 feet tall.. and he was really chubby but now :O :O :O he s soooo thin men... he was like O and now he s I... man.. that was a shocker I could barely recognize him... but he s doing good.. even though basic training is really gruelling he s doing good... haiyo I hate being broke. its SUCKS!! I wish I could go out tonight.. sigh... Im soo freakin bored at home with nothing to do.. sigh... no one to talk to as well... sigh.. guess I really am not that much of an introvert lol... Heads messed up again.. still getting weird dreams... sigh.. 2008 why the drama??? ARRRGGHH * mind explodes....

So This Christmas!

2008-12-11T19:58:00.000-08:00

hmm... what have I been upto the past year.. let me recall....

* blacked out for the first time on the 1st of jan.. brilliant way to start the new year init..

* went on cool ass trip to unnawatuna with a friend and his pallies, ended having a brilliant time there.

* lost friends and made a whole load of new ones.

* lost a bestfriend.. got her back.. lost her again.. got her back.. and the cycle continues..

* drank a hell of alot this year... became a fully fledged alcoholic.. no im not proud of tht...

* got my heartbroken

* broke other peoples hearts as well

* forgave a few old friends for what they did to me last year..

* witnessed more people from my class get married and one of them even had a kid... which scares the beegeezez out of me.

* stumbled upon kottu

* started my own blog

* got into a very sticky and complicated situation

* did things I never imagined I'd ever do

* gained a hell of a lot of weight.. which i cant seem to get rid of now =(

* went to a uni party where for the first time ever I dint dance at... cos i was blacked out on the couch lol..

* witnessed the best ever concert Lanka has ever hosted..

hmmm... cant think up of anything else... sigh.. still recovering from yesterday lol hehehehe...

BORED OUT OF MA MIND!!!! sure wish I 'd ve gone out tonight sigh....

We Won!! We Won!!

2008-12-11T19:38:00.000-08:00

Heheheeh.. Wooo Hooo!! we kicked them ACHE bums asses... even in the rain... oh man what a match... 33-5 bloody good score ne... I was actually nervous because I was playing in a position I've never played before.. outside center.. I'm usually a wing three-quarter... but it was no fuss.. hehehehe.. only problem was I dint get to tackle one guy even.. was a bit sad about that.. went in for a lot of hits but no tackles :( hehehe... but one thing our guys lacked was a bit of discipline and well fitness was low even for me... by the time the second half started I was already gone.. but I was shifted down to full back position and the new guys were brought in to the attack.. hehehe from there on.. ice thama lol... they had even got a trophy done the crystal trophy!! pissu sanda mole... dint expect that.... after the match.. we headed for the usual post-match dinner/booze session.. ended up going to Salaka and eating dinner and drinking old arrack... even got the refs there hehehe... after a few drinks the refs were like.. if any of you guys want to become referee's just tell us and we ll do something hehehe..... overall it was a brilliant day....

On a more serious note... why is it that when it comes to women I get into a cycle of either hurting them or them hurting me... sigh.. I want to break this freaking cycle... I want to have a healthy relationship sigh.. I think I'm gonna go MIA from the dating world for sometime... get my head cleared out.. spend some quality alone time with myself.. scary as that sounds.. Right well its back to practices on Monday got the SLIIT match coming up on the 20th.. thats the important one.. gonna beat those arses to a pulp this year!!

Things I Want

2008-12-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

I want.....

To win today's match

To stop recycling

To have him out of your life because I don't think we can be anything if he's still in your life including friends.

To stop being a mess

To have a purpose in life

To be a good son to my parents

To finish my degree with honours

To stop having messed up , freaky dreams
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oh bugger!!.. wrong day to be thinking of this shit... sigh...

Can't Think Up of a Heading Right Now... :S

2008-12-09T05:50:00.000-08:00

something a friend of mine texted to me awhile back......

"God determines who walks into you life, you determine who walks out"

interesting..

Kings Of Leon - On Call (live at Later...)

2008-12-09T02:06:00.000-08:00

She said call me now baby, and I'd come a running.
She said call me now baby, and I'd come a running.
If you'd call me now, baby I'd come a running.

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

To be there.
To be there.

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

I'm gon' brawl, so be there.
One for all, I'll be there.
And when they fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there laughing.

I'd come a running.
I'd come a running.
I'd come a running.

To be there.
To be there.

I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
I'm on call, to be there.
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Another great song by the Kings of Leon...
I just can't seem to get enough of them men.. keep listening to this one, use somebody, the bucket and sex on fire over n over again... sigh...

Battered & Bruised

2008-12-08T09:39:00.000-08:00

So as most of you would've realized by now I play rugby... die hard fan and love playing the game.. it does get brutal at times but I still love it... I read or heard from somewhere " Football is a gentleman's game played by thugs, whilst Rugby is a thug's game played my gentlemen" interesting statement init hehe.... anyways we have matches coming up so we've been having practices these days... got one on Thursday against ACHE - American College of Higher Education and then another most probably on the 19th against SLIIT. gonna be a good season but hectic with uni lectures n shit.... coming back to the topic today was hard.. had to practice in the rain and the grounds being wet and all... by the time we were done.. we were all covered in mud n muck lol... and on top of that we did tackling as well..

Now I love tackling.. theres no greater feeling than tackling someone and making sure its a nice solid tackle hehehe.. but today with the rain and the soggy conditions oh man its hurt.... I think I bruised a few muscles and have alot of scrapings.. you try tackling someone twice your size and you'll know what being hit by a locomotive feels like... not pretty sight... buggers shoulder rammed against my nose.. then later on I got tackled from the side... I think the bugger knocked against my calf muscle.. hurts like a bitch now although I dint feel anything at the time then... did manage to get in some good tackles as well... over all had a great practice... thursday's match should be an interesting encounter... can't wait to play that match =D...

Reason for this post = "I'm hurting right now.. but its a good hurt I guess.. keeps the emotional demons at bay :)"

Letter of Congratulation

2008-12-08T06:03:00.000-08:00

I know we don't speak anymore and neither we will in the future.. but just wanted to wish you congratulations for overcoming 3 years of pure hardship... you really deserve what you worked for.. and I know there were times when you thought it was too hard but you pushed through it.. and you won in the end.... Today you are finally have a Degree Bachelors honors ... so just wanted to say Congratulations to you and may you have a prosperous career and life in whatever you do..

Snow Patrol - Run

2008-12-07T22:40:00.000-08:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
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Perfect song to say good bye to... :)

Kings Of Leon - Sex On Fire

2008-12-07T00:44:00.000-08:00

Lay where you're laying
Don't make a sound
I know they're watching
they're watching

all the commontion
the Kiddie like play
has people talking

You
Your sex is on fire

The dark of the alley
The break of the day
Ahead while I'm driving
I'm driving

Soft lips are open
Them knuckles are pale
Feels like you're dying
You're dying

You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire

Hot as a fever
Rattling bones
I could just taste it
Taste it

But it's not forever
But it's just tonight
Oh we're still the greatest
The greatest
The greatest

You
Your sex is on fire
You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire
And You
Your sex is on fire
And so
Were the words to transpire
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Another brilliant song from Kings of Leon and currently my handle hehehe =D

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody

2008-12-06T10:25:00.000-08:00

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see
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stumbled upon this song.... starting to really love this band...

When I'm Right I'm Sooo Right!

2008-12-05T11:28:00.000-08:00

Told you that you dint love him...

Told you that you dint want to be with him...

Told you that you were just lying to yourself...

Told you that you will come to your senses someday...

Told you I cant be bothered waiting here to pick up the pieces after what you put me through...

Told you so...

How Drunk is Drunk Enough?

2008-12-04T08:09:00.000-08:00

so I was watching this movie the other day called " The Legend of the Baggavance" or something like that.. it has cherlize theron, will smith, matt damon in it.. its basically some blooming golf movie but there was one part in it where it kind of got my attention... theres this one scene where this boy comes searching for matt damon who's a wash out golfer... and he's in a barn with a few men drinking and playing cards... the boy asks a question there... How drunk, is drunk enough? and this is what matt damon replies...

"Rannulph Junnah (Matt Damon): Now, the question on the table is how drunk is drunk enough? And the answer is that it's all a matter of brain cells

Hardy Greaves(The Kid): Brain cells?

Rannulph Junnah(Matt Damon): That's right Hardy. You see every drink of liquor you take kills a thousand brain cells. Now that doesn't much matter 'cos we got billions more. And first the sadness cells die so you smile real big. And then the quiet cells go so you just say everything real loud for no reason at all. That'ok, that's ok because the stupid cells go next, so everything you say is real smart. And finally, come the memory cells. These are tough sons of bitches to kill."

hehehehe I was like Damn!! thats so true....

Setpitin Gaseema! ( Bringing a Gang to a Fight )

2008-12-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

So.... something happened at Onstage which kind of annoyed the crap out of me... but still I didn't let it affect my mood too much... well let me start from the beginning.. I used to belong to this forum which was in a more hard heavy metal kinda site.... and well I used to also be in this podcast site where I used to host a show... well.. as a promotion we decided to advertise the podcast site on this forum... but the response from it especially from a certain individual who I wont reveal because I don't sink so low.. was not very nice... it was just downright nasty.... this person is well... a vocalist of a band.. and well in what he said kinda really ticked me off.. so in retaliation I commented on the forum that he didn't have that a good voice.. which is my opinion of it... and he really took offense to it... and he started cursing me in pure filth blaa blaa... and even used my real name.... anyways... I really didn't care because well I don't keep grudges over trivial things like this...

So at Onstage all of a sudden a friend who knew this scene comes and tells me... "Dude if someone asks your name don't say it" :S I was like huh?? WTF..... anyways later on I find out that these guys, including that vocalist... had heard that I was going to be there and they wanted to beat me up.... I was like huh what the hell.. is he still pissed off over some stupid incident which happened so long ago... sheesh... I've never understood this bringing your gang of friends to beat up one poor guy concept... frankly telling I'm a peace keeper rather than a fighter... but if the need arises I will fight back.. I recall many a rugby match but well.. thats another story altogether.... I mean ok fine.. you want to hammer someone.. well then do it on your own... why bring a gang?? wheres the honour in that?? and why fight over something as soo trivial as this?? I mean come on... are we that immature... I tell you this mate... If you do come across this post... I have no personal beef watsoever with you... I love metal just as much as anybody else... and well ok fine maybe I hurt your feelings or something by saying you had a crappy voice... well... that was my opinion of it and well I apologize for it... but still... to keep a grudge over something like this?? :S :S :S I just find that downright weird... there are much better things to do man...

Anyways.. this was the only low point for me at this years onstage... overall it really was AWESOME!!... my neck still hurts from all that head banging... hahahaha.... I read a couple of moments ago.. a fellow blogger comment on respecting other peoples music choices... which is so true man... I mean you can't expect everyone to be like you... people might not agree sometimes.. thats just the way of the world.. you learn to deal with it...

Of Hangovers and Onstage Finals

2008-11-30T02:46:00.000-08:00

Oh man what a wild and wacky weekend I've had.... Things you shouldn't spend your weekend doing.

Friday Night

GOT ABSOLUTELY WASTED!!!! there was this uni party for the new batches at SSC.... and it was a friends birthday as well.. so head to bloemfield and went through 12 bottles of old arrack... before heading to SSC where i nicked a bottle of smirnoff from god knows where which was 3 quarter empty and drank it all neat... NOT a pretty sight... If you happen to be at the SSC and you saw a guy passed out on the couch... chances are that was me.... :$ thank god I had a ride home... came home.. at like 2.. managed to strip off my clothes and crash..... resulting hangover was NOT good... couldn't even keep water down.. for most of the day....

Saturday

After suffering from a major hangover... I had to come back to colombo to meet a lecturer at uni.. because he still hasn't approved my PPF.... and then met up with a friend of mine who came down from aussie....had lunch with her at Queens... and went to excel world after that.. met up with a few more people.. then went to visit my friends mom who s in hospital... then came back home... and got ready for onstage and went for it.... man oh man!! it was AWESOME!!!!
CIVILIZATION ONE!! was brilliant!!! I head banged so much my neck still hurts.. and my ears are still ringing and I've lost my voice as well... it was soooo majorly worth it!! and I got in for free too... hehehe thanks to M.o.M herself who bought me a ticket as my birthday present... =D... as usual the beer their sucked!! but it was nice to meet lots of old friends who I hadn't met up with awhile... saw the Ex-Bestfriend and Ex-Friend there as well... but you know what.. I just didn't care anymore.. the music was too good and they didn't ruin my mood.. so cheers to that... went back to F's place and crashed...

Sunday

Came home ate around 3 in the afternoon got a nice scolding by my parents... showered.. ate.. slept... said the usual round of congratulations to Mackie, Losharn, Myya and Dilshan the Nemesis gang who won the comp!! They were brilliant btw!!! Fade to Black, an original of theirs called Half-Cocked and for the acoustic round... Nadee Gangaa.. PURE BLISS!! they so totally deserved the title of BEST BAND. oh man my neck still hurts!! sigh..... I'd sooo love a neck massage right now... any takers??? hehehehe...

Hope you all had a good one as well.. and heres to a great week!! =D

Invasion of the Dream Girl

2008-11-25T06:00:00.000-08:00

It happened to me again last night.... she appeared in my dream again.... why can't I remember what she looked like... sigh.... I remember holding her... kissing her... hugging her.. but I just can't put a face on her... AARRGGHH!! Just holding her hand in my dream felt so real men.. I was so happy.. why the hell did I have to wake up.. sigh... Who are you dream girl?? Why do you torment me so? Will I ever meet you? Or are you something my mind created to fill up the void inside of me?.... sigh....